Buku 5 Tahun 5 Bulan ditarik keluar dari rak. Pantas mata
menangkap suatu kertas kecil pada muka surat belakang novel Hlovate itu..
Sepucuk surat daripada dia yang telah menghadiahkan novel ini kepada diri..
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Dear NSM,
Thank you so much for being part of my KY’s memories and in
shaa Allah this friendship and ukhwah fillah will remain till forever :) sorry
for every mistakes I’ve done sama ada sedar atau tak. Macam banyak x sedar jer…
In every circumstances, tak pernah ada niat nak sakitkan hati whatsoever or
buat adah marah. Really sorry for that. Sorry that I’m not a good friend
though, a friend that often can’t understand what you want or need. A friend
who don’t know what to do when you’re
sad. Piyane ^^ The only thing I can do is listen.. Be strong in every single
thing you do, coz I know you are XD
KY memories were so much awesome with you. Rescue anak
burung, stargazing, panjat bukit tepi surau As-Saad, main guling-guling kat
belakang tu… baring atas padang ~ All of those memories, I think are impossible
if there’s no you with me. Hehe. I’m not strong enuf to do those things alone.
Insya Allah, give me strength in this path too. Jalan mencari redhaNya : )
Kadang-kadang takut jugak kandas di pertengahan, hope u’ll
support me all the time, keep reminding me to stick on this path ok? Glad to
know you so much XD
…………………………priceless
friendship……………………………
But I’ve never had the time and courage to reply the letter until
now.. Walaupun mungkin dia tak baca blog ni.. but here goes nothing..
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Dear NA,
Thank you for being such a great friend. The moment you
think that you can do nothing when I’m sad (many times), you are my everything
because you listen and a listener is all that I need. And now is the time when
I really need a listener the most coz being away means I no longer have you,
someone who would just listen, no comment, no words but somehow your silence
lift up that heavy burden and make me listen. And I’m sorry too for the mistakes I’ve done
but you know I’ve never meant to hurt you or make you cry. It’s so good to have
a friend who always seems so strong, who always shows compassion to everything.
While those memories you mentioned were unforgettable ( but
you missed one : time panjat bumbung surau utk selamatkan kucing :X hehe), the
one that stood out the most for me is when we were travelling on a train to KL.
Ingat tak, time tu kita sama-sama tukar cerita sahabat2 Rasulullah. Time tu
rasa sweet sangat sebab terasa ukhwah kerana Allah and that was the first time
I’ve ever had that kind of feelings in my life. Bercerita tentang kisah sahabat
untuk isi masang lapang… mmmmm.. not really something that the old me would
do.. Yer lar, Adah bukan budak sekolah agama, usrah pun first time join kt KY.
Tapi, Alhamdulillah Allah pertemukan sahabat yang membawa Adah untuk mengenali
Dia. For that I thank you. Semoga kita kekal tsabat di jalan ni.
(Oki, dah… tu jer… dah x nak berendam air mata :x )
……………………………..unspoken
words ………………………………………
Flash back lagi :: Teringat plak chaletmates yang dulu jarang sangat bersama. Apa taknya, busy sangat
bekerja sampai x ingat dunia, balik chalet semata-mata untuk tidur jer.
Tapi kata-kata chalet
mates time jumpa kat London hari tu menusuk jiwa.
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M : Adah ok ker kt Ireland? Kalau ada masalah jangan segan nak
bagitau yer.
Me : mmmmmm.. in shaa Allah.
M : M tau M tak mampu nak tolong sangat. Even time kat KY
dulu, M tau jer yang Adah banyak kali sedih tapi M x mampu buat apa-apa. Malam-malam
setiap kali habis event, balik chalet Adah terus tutup lampu tapi M tahu Adah
tak tidur pun, Adah solat, Adah nangis. Mesti letih, mesti sedih. Allah jer
tau. M cuma mampu doa.
Me : mmmmmmmmmm.. (thn sebak)
N : N x tau mcm mana Adah boleh sabar dan tahan dengan __________.. Mesti berat tapi Adah tahan jugak. Tapi N sekadar mampu melihat dan
berdoa untuk Adah.
M : Memang kami tak mampu nak tolong, tapi kami boleh
mendengar. Awal-awal pagi Adah bangun, M dengar jer. Adah nangis, doa dekat Allah sebab
Adah rasa Adah hanya ada Allah. Benar Adah ada Allah, tapi Adah pun ada kami
untuk mendengar. Dan kami akan terus doa untuk Adah.
N : Setiap kali doa, N mesti doakan Adah dan sahabat-sahabat
agar Allah permudahkan kerja. Adah pun doakan N yer :)
Me : Thank you.. In shaa Allah.. :’)
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prayer…………………………………………..
Pernah dulu terbaca dalam diari N, catatan tentang diri ni
yang hina.. tak ingat exact word tapi dicatatnya t : Hari ni, Adah balik lewat
lagi, nampak letih. X mampu tolong, sekadar mampu berdoa. Moga dipermudah
segala… mmmmmmmmm… tak banyak tapi tu tanda dia ingat kita.
Sometimes we take for granted those around us. At least I
take them for granted, jarang sangat ada waktu bersama, borak jarang, movie
night pn skali jer sepanjang 2 tahun tu, tu pn after habis exam. Tapi tanpa
sedar dioranglah yang banyak membantu dengan cara tersendiri..
At times when they think they did nothing, they did
everything. Because their silent prayer means the world to me. And it takes
their absence to make me realize it.
……………………………….. Allahu
Allah …………………………………
And I realize now,
these are not the only great people I’ve met in KY :
Sahabat
yang nampak stone tapi dalam hati ada taman, selalu bagi nasihat. Banyak cara
dia yang kurang setuju tapi in the end I
always turn to her for advice because deep down I know that our opinions may
differ but I value the difference and from it I learned that a real friend will
always tell you what she thinks is right for you, although you may not want to
hear it (at first or maybe it will take a longggg time before it makes sense to
you). Pahit pun harus diluah jua.
Sahabat
yang tak banyak cakap, nampak tegas but
her warm hug means the world to me. No words are needed. Just a gentle pat or a
warm hug.
Sahabat
yang selalu kata “I know you’re sad and it’s okay to cry”. “I know how you feel,
just be strong”.. Sahabat ni selalu jer senyum, nampak selalu happy walaupun
hakikatnya banyak yang ditanggung. Gang makan maggi time stress. Without her
knowing, she’s my sunshine because she would always make me smile.
Alhamdulillah,
tsumma Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for blessing me with such great friends. And I'm so sorry for not being a good one.
In shaa Allah, friends till jannah.
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“The believers, men
and women are Awliya’ (helpers, supporters, friends, protectors) of one another”
(9:71)
Nikmat yang paling
berharga selepas nikmat Iman dan Islam adalah memiliki SAHABAT yang soleh. Jika
kamu mendapati kewujudan kasih sayang antara kamu, maka peganglah ia
sungguh-sungguh ~Umar Al-Khattab~
sekadar ingatan untuk diri, tentang makna sahabat sejati.
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